Micheal Sinclair
My intention is to help you see yourself more clearly.
A Bit About Me
clarity
I much prefer darkness to artificial light — and that’s because darkness is where I lived the first 23 years of my life.
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In my 24th year, my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. Crisis ensued. Daily bouts with crippling depression and anxiety. Constant fear of how a life without my mother might look.
Out of pure desperation, I tried meditating for the 2nd time in my life. During which I encountered what I could only describe as pure love. Love and a real light.
This light helped me see myself and the world in a totally new way. A way that instantly relieved me of the anxieties I had about my mother’s future — and of my own.
In my 26th year, my mother passed, and I decided I’d spend the rest of my life honoring her memory by helping others discover and connect with their own light. For the past decade, I’ve been doing exactly that.
If I had to describe my work in one word it'd be clarity. Everything I create has one foundational goal and that is to help others see themselves clearly in the fullness of their own light.
Offerings
words
I don't really like words and I honestly never imagined I'd call myself a writer. Most days I still don't feel like one. I'm more of a thinker, but I enjoy sharing my ideas, and mind-to-mind telepathy requires more consent than I can legally acquire at scale.
So, here we are.
grow with micheal sinclair
From 2024-2025 I wrote a series of weekly newsletters known collectively as Grow with Micheal Sinclair, 70+ longform reflections of my own self-healing journey and insights I’ve picked up along the way.
That collection, as well as my earlier longform writing from 2016-2020, can be found in my substack archive. Read the full archive on Substack
(Archive migration is ongoing.)
get to know me in five posts
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An Open Letter To the Girls I Fucked Who Wanted Love But Only Got A Dick
The 1st piece that I ever published back in 2016 at age 26. It's an apology to the women I hurt in my youth, inspired by my heart being broken open due to my mother's battle with Pancreatic Cancer. In it, I confront the ways my conscious and unconscious misogyny, selfishness, and objectification harmed women who genuinely cared about me.
Love: Appreciation Vs. Possession and Why Possessiveness Is Toxic In Any Relationship
Here I compare and contrast love and possession and explore how my mother's possessiveness over me pushed me away from her and how my possessiveness made every romantic relationship I'd had at the point of writing toxic. Published in 2017.
I am not what you see or what you say
So much of our sense of self is rooted in our bodies and the identities assigned to us because of how our bodies look. This piece is a bit of an introduction into self-inquiry and non-duality. It talks about the process of shedding my worldly identities and coming to know myself as I truly am — as the eternal spirit that animates the body, not the body itself. Published in 2019.
Who Made You Feel Unworthy?
Towards the end of 2023 I discovered that I had an unworthiness wound which was the crux of an unconscious habit of self-sabotage. I became very curious as to the origins of this wound so that I could heal it once and for all. I discovered that my unworthiness did not originate with myself but rather, it was the result of things that were projected onto me by those closest to me — my family.
Color Outside the Lines: My Experience as an ‘Alternative’ Black Man
I explore my existence as a Black man whose core experiences are similar to most other Black Americans but who also has beliefs, interests, & desires that deviate from what is commonly acceptable within Black culture. I speak on how being ‘Black’ often felt more limiting than empowering & how embracing taboo things such as my feminine side helped me accept & appreciate myself exactly as I am.
Musings
- The fact that nothing matters—absolutely—should give you peace.
The fact that everything matters—relatively—should give you purpose. - Life is full of paradoxes like:
once you want nothing, you receive everything
to live a little, you have to die a lot
silence is always more true than any combination of words
and how I love pickles but hate cucumbers - We literally have nothing to lose by being our authentic selves—
except the interest of people we wouldn’t resonate with anyway. - People can only meet us as deeply as they’ve met themselves.
So if you frequent the uncharted depths within yourself, don’t expect much company. - Love is safe—but only to the soul.
To the ego, there’s nothing more dangerous.
This is why traumatized people often run from love—
because the ego is armor for the traumatized self. - Loneliness is a difficult problem to solve because we don’t just want company—we want connection.
And the wrong company can make you feel even more alone than if you were literally by yourself. - Never try to heal someone against their will—
not that it would work, anyways.
People are possessive over their pain so if you try to take it from them before they are ready to let it go, they will run, deflect, or hurt you to push you away
are we clear?
is my latest publication, hosted on Substack. I migrated there because it made the most sense to host my writing where readers gather. Expect weekly reflections that inspire you to examine yourself, and the world around you, more clearly.
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What I’m building
questionable (morals)
a mirror, not a lecture.
Questionable (Morals) is a mirror. It's the first offering in a developing suite of self-inquiry tools, intentionally designed to help you connect with your own moral compass. It shows, it doesn’t tell. There truly are no "right" answers, even when what's correct seems glaringly obvious.
Like belief systems, I believe that morals are largely inherited and unexamined. This is why our morals feel so "black" and "white" — because we've never been invited to interrogate them.
I built this application for just that purpose — to reveal that morality and humanity are both a lot more grey than we may like to acknowledge. To expose that grey area to be examined — because accepting that grey area is integral to seeing ourselves clearly.
Ten dilemmas. No 'right' answers — just the uncomfortable truth. Cast your vote and watch as the scales reflect how your morals compare to everyone else's.
Mercy without Memory
What we don't know can't hurt us... right?
Your beloved partner has a terminal brain illness and made you promise that, when the time comes, you won't let them suffer.
They've recently fallen into a coma that will likely lead to a peaceful death in a matter of days. Their doctor pulls you aside and tells you about an experimental treatment with a 100% success rate so far.
However, the nature of the procedure means anesthesia isn't possible so your partner will experience hours of excruciating pain while it's being administered. Luckily, patients retain no memory of the experience afterward.
As their medical power of attorney, do you authorize the painful treatment so they live, or allow a death free of suffering?
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