
The Magical Urge To Disappear
I wouldn't call myself anti-social but I am certainly anti-society and I quickly tire from interacting with people entranced by society's desires and ideas. This is why I keep to myself the vast majority of the time.
I wouldn't call myself anti-social but I am certainly anti-society and I quickly tire from interacting with people entranced by society's desires and ideas. This is why I keep to myself the vast majority of the time.
Sex, for me, is no longer casual because the same intimacy that I feared in my teens and early twenties that led me to treat sex like a plaything is the same intimacy that I now crave, respect, and will hold in the highest regard if I'm blessed to fully experience it with another person.
It seems to me that the whole “old and mature” thing us middle-aged people do is a bit of roleplay—a persona we project at work and in public to help perpetuate the conspiracy of age equating to maturity.